My Mom, Joandra Carreño passed away the morning of September 6, 2023. Recently, I saw that for 14 years she had been managing my sister, Nicole Carreño's memorial leaving her flowers and notes often. So, I thought my Mom deserved someone to do that for her and to take over my sister's memorial as well. I think she would have loved that.

♥ •.¸¸. • ♥MOM♥ •.¸¸.•♥9/29/2023 ♥•.¸¸.•♥
A couple of weeks before my Mom passed away, I was telling her that I would never go to another funeral in my lifetime, including hers. Yet, here I am. My Mom and I talked about dying a lot over the past month, discussing things to do and know. Ever since my sister passed away, the thought of losing my family has been a daily fear of mine, my heart sinks each morning I wake up when I realize, one of them is no longer a phone call away.
My earliest memory would be when my brother and I were kids and we would argue; my mom would sit us on the floor in front of each other and make us stare at one another. Gus and I would end up irritated with her, but now laughing and getting along. She wasn't only a mom to us but she shared a motherly bond with some of our friends and the kids that she would babysit.
Recently, she told stories about how she met my Dad and you could see that she was head over heels for him. She loved my Dad very much, and it meant a lot to her that he could provide for all of us, so that she could stay home and take care of Gus and I.
I'm thankful for all of the beautiful memories we shared. Some of the best moments are when we would travel to Andrea's dance competitions, getting rowdy at hockey games, or simply just playing cards.
I'm going to miss everything about her. She had the softest hair in the world, it felt like feathers, our hysterical laughter, which would make her have to use an inhaler, or the aggressive way she would rip the credit card out of my hand so I wouldn't pay. I know one day I will be able to talk with her, laugh with her, and hug her, but until then, it'll be something I miss.
There was an emotional moment we had together where she was saying she didn't feel loved or needed anymore. But, I told her that Satan is a manipulator and he wants her to believe that. I expressed to her how much I love her, how important she is to me, and that I would ALWAYS need her. I believe all of us get those negative thoughts. So, it's important to show and tell your circle of people how much they mean to you, just as a reminder that they are loved.
The morning my Mom passed away, I was going to invite her over so I can make her favorite breakfast, but I kept procrastinating on calling her, then it was too late.
Losing her will forever change my life, but I know that she was saved, she believed that Jesus died for our sins. She knew where she was going, and I know where she's at. I came across a lot of prayers and bible verses on her phone. She was trying to read her bible in a year, she only had 80 days left. She almost made it.
I'd like to share the last two screenshots she took from her phone the day before she passed…
First one was at 5:51a.m. "One minute after a believer dies, angels usher your soul to Heaven, you immediately enter God's presence, you are conscious, in command of your thinking, feeling, speech and memories, you participate in magnificent worship with angels and believers before the throne of God and Christ, you are aware to some degree of activities and events on earth, you will recognize and communicate with believers who preceded you to Heaven."
The last screenshot she took, was a prayer, taken at 8:40 p.m. "God, when I am afraid, I will put my trust in You. I know that when You are for me, nothing can stand against me! Right now, I surrender my fears to You. Please take my concerns, shame, and problems, and replace them with Your peace and truth. Protect my mind as I continue to draw close to You. In Jesus' name, Amen."
Mom, you are the person that I depend on the most, you understand me more than anyone, thanks for loving me even through my bad years, thank you for being the one I went to for everything, thank you for being a mom to Armando giving him that unconditional love that he needed, thank you for being the best Mamaw to Andrea, by taking care of her and building a strong relationship. Although, it's going to be difficult without you, I still have to make some more memories with the ones you left behind. Every time I see a white butterfly, I'll think of you. I love you, with all of my heart! Tara🩵

My Mom, Joandra Carreño passed away the morning of September 6, 2023. Recently, I saw that for 14 years she had been managing my sister, Nicole Carreño's memorial leaving her flowers and notes often. So, I thought my Mom deserved someone to do that for her and to take over my sister's memorial as well. I think she would have loved that.

♥ •.¸¸. • ♥MOM♥ •.¸¸.•♥9/29/2023 ♥•.¸¸.•♥
A couple of weeks before my Mom passed away, I was telling her that I would never go to another funeral in my lifetime, including hers. Yet, here I am. My Mom and I talked about dying a lot over the past month, discussing things to do and know. Ever since my sister passed away, the thought of losing my family has been a daily fear of mine, my heart sinks each morning I wake up when I realize, one of them is no longer a phone call away.
My earliest memory would be when my brother and I were kids and we would argue; my mom would sit us on the floor in front of each other and make us stare at one another. Gus and I would end up irritated with her, but now laughing and getting along. She wasn't only a mom to us but she shared a motherly bond with some of our friends and the kids that she would babysit.
Recently, she told stories about how she met my Dad and you could see that she was head over heels for him. She loved my Dad very much, and it meant a lot to her that he could provide for all of us, so that she could stay home and take care of Gus and I.
I'm thankful for all of the beautiful memories we shared. Some of the best moments are when we would travel to Andrea's dance competitions, getting rowdy at hockey games, or simply just playing cards.
I'm going to miss everything about her. She had the softest hair in the world, it felt like feathers, our hysterical laughter, which would make her have to use an inhaler, or the aggressive way she would rip the credit card out of my hand so I wouldn't pay. I know one day I will be able to talk with her, laugh with her, and hug her, but until then, it'll be something I miss.
There was an emotional moment we had together where she was saying she didn't feel loved or needed anymore. But, I told her that Satan is a manipulator and he wants her to believe that. I expressed to her how much I love her, how important she is to me, and that I would ALWAYS need her. I believe all of us get those negative thoughts. So, it's important to show and tell your circle of people how much they mean to you, just as a reminder that they are loved.
The morning my Mom passed away, I was going to invite her over so I can make her favorite breakfast, but I kept procrastinating on calling her, then it was too late.
Losing her will forever change my life, but I know that she was saved, she believed that Jesus died for our sins. She knew where she was going, and I know where she's at. I came across a lot of prayers and bible verses on her phone. She was trying to read her bible in a year, she only had 80 days left. She almost made it.
I'd like to share the last two screenshots she took from her phone the day before she passed…
First one was at 5:51a.m. "One minute after a believer dies, angels usher your soul to Heaven, you immediately enter God's presence, you are conscious, in command of your thinking, feeling, speech and memories, you participate in magnificent worship with angels and believers before the throne of God and Christ, you are aware to some degree of activities and events on earth, you will recognize and communicate with believers who preceded you to Heaven."
The last screenshot she took, was a prayer, taken at 8:40 p.m. "God, when I am afraid, I will put my trust in You. I know that when You are for me, nothing can stand against me! Right now, I surrender my fears to You. Please take my concerns, shame, and problems, and replace them with Your peace and truth. Protect my mind as I continue to draw close to You. In Jesus' name, Amen."
Mom, you are the person that I depend on the most, you understand me more than anyone, thanks for loving me even through my bad years, thank you for being the one I went to for everything, thank you for being a mom to Armando giving him that unconditional love that he needed, thank you for being the best Mamaw to Andrea, by taking care of her and building a strong relationship. Although, it's going to be difficult without you, I still have to make some more memories with the ones you left behind. Every time I see a white butterfly, I'll think of you. I love you, with all of my heart! Tara🩵