A little about Gina, Gina could not wait to get in this world, she was popping out as we drove to the the hospital. The nurses had to hold her in, in the elevator, yelling tell that doctor to get here stat or we ain't gonna need him anymore. Those were her exact Brooklyn accented words. Out popped Gina, all 9 lbs of her. A screamer, a cryer, a baby that nearly lost an arm because the placenta was wrapped around it. Finally after 3 days she was allowed to be held. Blonde, sweet, and oh so loud. She grew and loved her big wheels, and had lots of little friends. She cryed when i had to leave her at kindergarden, because Gina and i were like Velcro. She never let me out of her sight. She went to jr. college for criminal law and a class in computers. She learned Russian and German. For some reason she loved Russian things. She was an honor student and wanted to become a corp. lawyer. She passed every test with flying colors, she was beyond smart. She drove a black 560 SL mercedes that we got her because she was so determined to do good in this life. She hated to leave me, when she started work she would say to me, ok, i will call you, i am off to hell. And she meant it. She loved Concerts, Pearl Jam, The Stones , NIN and was always playing music in her room. She also loved to bake, my mom taught her to bake, and Gina was a perfectionate at it. Before the mercedes we shared a metallic blue corvette, since we were always together she decieded she wanted a SL, so that Mariesa could fit in it with us, which was impossible with the corvettes. She had first a grey one with black top, then an all black one, she loved cars. She loved life, most of all she loved her family, and she loved all and any animals except lizards, frogs and skinks. There is not enough room here to write what a wonderful, loving, compassionate daugher she is and always will be. She loved hockey, her and her sister Mariesa had season tickets and when hockey season came, they were in only one place. Now when i change channels on tv and Hockey is on, i have to change the channel as fast as possible or the memories just pour back in my head and sometimes can't be controlled. Gina went to Europe with her school, visiting Germany, Greece, England and France. She loved life. She would do anything for my mom, her sister or me and the dogs and cats, She can never ever be replaced. I only hope this is not the end, that i will see her again, the worst thing we did was moving from Brooklyn to Florida, She found her Sister's remains when no one else could, she found her dad, in bed and tryed to give him CPR. She went thru a lot in her young life. But she still loved life. I don't understand why she left this life, I think one night she lost tract, she did not drink at all. But that one night something happened, and i found her in laying on her chaise lounge in front of the tv, with Hockey playing, and her gone. She took me with her. It was all to much, it will always be to much. She lost her life and i lost mine. She was my rock after her sister was found, she got me thru so much only to leave me alone in this world with nothing, i know she didn't mean too, and i know she crys to get back as i cry to have her and her sister back. The only two people I can truly say, aside from my mom that i ever loved in my life. Gone. Leaving me in a lonely existance, nothing like life. And Mariesa and Gina cheated out of the beautiful lives they could have had. Two brilliant beautiful girls, that loved so deeply, and that were loved even deeper. I miss and love you both. Gina... you will always be my velcro baby, and Re, you were more independent, you will always be my best friend, my problem solver and my beloved daughter. Memories of my only two beloved children, my two daughters will never die, they live deep, very deep within my mind and heart. One wish....is to see them again, to hug them, to hold their hands, but i am a realiest, and I guess that is why I hurt so bad. I love you both, more then there are stars in the sky and fish in the ocean. I may never see either of you again, but, you will live on in me forever + ever.
Mommy. xoxoxoxo
With all the love a heart can give. I miss and love you both and wish i could be where u are. xoxo
Until then I just exist. All my love forever belongs only to you both.
A little about Gina, Gina could not wait to get in this world, she was popping out as we drove to the the hospital. The nurses had to hold her in, in the elevator, yelling tell that doctor to get here stat or we ain't gonna need him anymore. Those were her exact Brooklyn accented words. Out popped Gina, all 9 lbs of her. A screamer, a cryer, a baby that nearly lost an arm because the placenta was wrapped around it. Finally after 3 days she was allowed to be held. Blonde, sweet, and oh so loud. She grew and loved her big wheels, and had lots of little friends. She cryed when i had to leave her at kindergarden, because Gina and i were like Velcro. She never let me out of her sight. She went to jr. college for criminal law and a class in computers. She learned Russian and German. For some reason she loved Russian things. She was an honor student and wanted to become a corp. lawyer. She passed every test with flying colors, she was beyond smart. She drove a black 560 SL mercedes that we got her because she was so determined to do good in this life. She hated to leave me, when she started work she would say to me, ok, i will call you, i am off to hell. And she meant it. She loved Concerts, Pearl Jam, The Stones , NIN and was always playing music in her room. She also loved to bake, my mom taught her to bake, and Gina was a perfectionate at it. Before the mercedes we shared a metallic blue corvette, since we were always together she decieded she wanted a SL, so that Mariesa could fit in it with us, which was impossible with the corvettes. She had first a grey one with black top, then an all black one, she loved cars. She loved life, most of all she loved her family, and she loved all and any animals except lizards, frogs and skinks. There is not enough room here to write what a wonderful, loving, compassionate daugher she is and always will be. She loved hockey, her and her sister Mariesa had season tickets and when hockey season came, they were in only one place. Now when i change channels on tv and Hockey is on, i have to change the channel as fast as possible or the memories just pour back in my head and sometimes can't be controlled. Gina went to Europe with her school, visiting Germany, Greece, England and France. She loved life. She would do anything for my mom, her sister or me and the dogs and cats, She can never ever be replaced. I only hope this is not the end, that i will see her again, the worst thing we did was moving from Brooklyn to Florida, She found her Sister's remains when no one else could, she found her dad, in bed and tryed to give him CPR. She went thru a lot in her young life. But she still loved life. I don't understand why she left this life, I think one night she lost tract, she did not drink at all. But that one night something happened, and i found her in laying on her chaise lounge in front of the tv, with Hockey playing, and her gone. She took me with her. It was all to much, it will always be to much. She lost her life and i lost mine. She was my rock after her sister was found, she got me thru so much only to leave me alone in this world with nothing, i know she didn't mean too, and i know she crys to get back as i cry to have her and her sister back. The only two people I can truly say, aside from my mom that i ever loved in my life. Gone. Leaving me in a lonely existance, nothing like life. And Mariesa and Gina cheated out of the beautiful lives they could have had. Two brilliant beautiful girls, that loved so deeply, and that were loved even deeper. I miss and love you both. Gina... you will always be my velcro baby, and Re, you were more independent, you will always be my best friend, my problem solver and my beloved daughter. Memories of my only two beloved children, my two daughters will never die, they live deep, very deep within my mind and heart. One wish....is to see them again, to hug them, to hold their hands, but i am a realiest, and I guess that is why I hurt so bad. I love you both, more then there are stars in the sky and fish in the ocean. I may never see either of you again, but, you will live on in me forever + ever.
Mommy. xoxoxoxo
With all the love a heart can give. I miss and love you both and wish i could be where u are. xoxo
Until then I just exist. All my love forever belongs only to you both.